{"id":8143,"date":"2018-09-28T15:33:14","date_gmt":"2018-09-28T20:33:14","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/customwordpresssites.com\/mjb\/?p=8143"},"modified":"2026-02-26T13:42:02","modified_gmt":"2026-02-26T19:42:02","slug":"the-myth-of-the-self-made-person-and-the-true-demand-of-discipleship","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/customwordpresssites.com\/mjb\/2018\/09\/28\/the-myth-of-the-self-made-person-and-the-true-demand-of-discipleship\/","title":{"rendered":"The myth of the self-made person and the true demand of discipleship"},"content":{"rendered":"

A week ago, I sat among a circle of women at the local county jail. The fluorescent lights shined brightly overhead as we discussed Bible verses and prayed together, as we marveled about the challenges of being good. We laughed, nodded and spoke vulnerably with one another about how tough it can be to be our best selves.<\/p>\n

Then, one young woman stunned me with a confession. “I have been using drugs so long that I don’t really know who I am without them … I don’t really know how to figure out who I am really meant to be, either.” Her dark, thin face became emotional as she admitted her struggle.<\/p>\n

All week, as our democracy once again seems to be corrupted by fears and accusations, by a lack of compassion and hope, I have been thinking about this woman. It’s an awful time for our nation, for democrats and republicans, for the pro-life movement and for those who are victims of sexual assault and abuse. It is an awful time for women, for advocates of peace and justice — for those who want every person’s dignity and story to be respected and honored.<\/p>\n

We are all characters in this story and it’s a good time to ask: who are we really? Who are we becoming? Who are we made to be? And, what are the blocks that get in the way of us knowing the truth?<\/p>\n

From my vantage point, it seems that a particular American myth is deeply enmeshed in the public and private pain: we can all become whoever we want to be. Anyone can make themselves.<\/p>\n

All week, I have been thinking of the woman I met in the jail who said that she doesn’t really know who she is without her addiction, as I have been thinking about my discernment and growth. I realized after the fact, that I didn’t really respond the right way to her comment. I said “yes, it’s a struggle. I am still figuring out who I am … it helps to figure out what we’re passionate about; it’s good to think up dreams and goals and work toward them.” \u00a0It seems that although I haven’t struggled with a drug addiction, certain things have blocked me from coming to know the truth of who I am, such as false beliefs.<\/p>\n

For example, for several years I believed in — and promulgated — the idea that every person can become who they want to be, that we all ought to dream up hopes and then work toward them. Somewhere along the way, I became convinced that this was the path to success and accomplishment, to joy and peace. I taught this to teens and struggling young adults. I insisted that they all make up lists of life goals and dreams, that they imagine who they wanted to be and then work to build up that life.<\/p>\n

This is the privileged myth of the “self-made man.” This is the pursuit of the “American dream.” This is not in line with what it means to truly be following Jesus.<\/p>\n

So, the Spirit got a hold of me, shook me down and taught me the truth. Eventually, I learned that life isn’t so much about what I want, but God’s way.\u00a0“You may not do what you want,”\u00a0Galatians 5:17<\/strong><\/a>\u00a0insists. For good reasons too. If I did whatever I wanted, I’d be a very selfish, greedy person who would probably not be so interested in serving the needs of others, in pleasing God. I am not saying I am scum, but I am, of course, a work in progress who struggles with being sinful as much as the next person. God’s ways are better than my ways.<\/p>\n

Discipleship is about following, not creating oneself. Perhaps this is an impact of living a vow of obedience, of discerning with my sisters how my gifts and talents can best serve the common good, of trying to listen and obey the Spirit’s encouragements to move certain directions with my life.<\/p>\n

Discipleship demands discovery, not the building of oneself. We discover who God is making us into and inviting us to be. We don’t have to assert our own agendas and dreams.<\/p>\n

And amazingly, in my experience, following the Spirit’s invitations, saying “yes” to God’s ways, leads to more joy and self-discovery, to a deeper understanding of one’s own giftedness\u00a0and\u00a0<\/em>struggles. Yes, knowing our desires and interests is important — those are parts of how God created us. But life is ultimately not about what we want, but God’s will. Life is a walk forward into the mystery, a submission to God’s designs — a masterpiece in process of which we somehow get to be a part of.<\/p>\n

Put another way, it’s about listening and bowing to the beauty that is beyond us, to seeing how we are part of the bigger story, as Mark Nepo<\/a><\/strong> describes in this poem:<\/p>\n

\u201cUnderstory\u201d<\/strong>
\nby Mark Nepo<\/p>\n

I\u2019ve been watching stars
\nrely on the darkness they
\nresist. And fish struggle with
\nand against the current. And
\nhawks glide faster when their
\nwings don\u2019t move.<\/p>\n

Still I keep retelling what
\nhappens till it comes out
\nthe way I want.<\/p>\n

We try so hard to be the
\nmain character when it is
\nour point of view that
\nkeeps us from the truth.<\/p>\n

The sun has its story
\nthat no curtain can stop.<\/p>\n

It\u2019s true. The only way beyond
\nthe self is through it. The only
\nway to listen to what can never
\nbe said is to quiet our need
\nto steer the plot.<\/p>\n

When jarred by life, we might
\nunravel the story we tell ourselves
\nand discover the story we are in,
\nthe one that keeps telling us.<\/p>\n

The woman in the jail and I are both coming to know an important part of being human: we can discover who God wills us to be by seeing how we are meant to be part of a bigger story, a story made up of more than what we want. Then, along the way, we will come to discover who we really are.<\/p>\n

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The myth of the self-made person and the true demand of discipleship<\/a><\/blockquote>