{"id":8093,"date":"2018-08-14T15:32:16","date_gmt":"2018-08-14T20:32:16","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/customwordpresssites.com\/mjb\/?p=8093"},"modified":"2026-02-26T13:42:14","modified_gmt":"2026-02-26T19:42:14","slug":"when-jesus-came-to-the-er","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/customwordpresssites.com\/mjb\/2018\/08\/14\/when-jesus-came-to-the-er\/","title":{"rendered":"When Jesus came to the ER"},"content":{"rendered":"

It may have been one of the loneliest moments in my life. I was alone in a small, bare triage room with only an examining table. An armed guard was posted outside the door. My clothes had been taken from me and I was wearing a flimsy gown that opened in the back. I was barefoot. I stayed like this for two and a half very long hours. I felt totally alone.<\/p>\n

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I had just checked myself into the emergency room for depression. Through years of struggle and ups and downs, I had reached a low point. I did not feel capable of keeping myself safe so I turned to hospitalization. What I didn\u2019t know was that in this moment of crisis, while I waited to be examined and for a room to open on the unit, that I would feel so utterly alone and abandoned.<\/p>\n

The hospitalization ended up being quite helpful and I was able to get to a better space in my life with more stability. Months later, while I was on retreat, the memory of the small room returned to me in prayer. Through the eyes of prayer, this is what I saw:<\/p>\n

I\u2019m alone, sitting on the bare, cold floor. A security guard waits outside the room, keeping watch. Then the door opens and Jesus walks through. Jesus looks like a farmer woman. She\u2019s wearing blue jean overalls and has black curly hair that overflows her tender face. She looks at me and smiles and suddenly, I don\u2019t feel so alone. Jesus walks in the room and sits down on the floor behind me. She encircles me with her arms. I lean back and place my head on her heart. I am surrounded with love. All at once, we are in a beautiful field umbrellaed by a bright blue sky. Instead of a bare, tile floor we are sitting on the soft earth with our feet and hands digging into the dark, rich dirt. We stand up and she takes my hand. We are running in the field filled with stunning wild flowers. I feel free and happy. I know Jesus is with me. <\/em><\/p>\n

That prayer helped to heal my memory. It also taught me an important lesson. I am never alone. Jesus is always with me. Especially in those moments when I feel most abandoned, there are times that I am most closely accompanied by the Living Christ. When life gets messy, Jesus shows up. This lesson has helped sustain me through other difficult moments and helped me be present to others when they are struggling. It has also taught me about love.<\/p>\n

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Love is a letting go, a stripping of self, an abandon of control. I also firmly believe that love is the entire purpose of our lives. I see love as an endless stream of hot, fiery lava. In some place or time that lava flows without end. But here on Earth, love crusts over like lava does when it hits cold air. We spend our lives bumping into other people\u2019s crusts. We spend our lives learning how to open up and to love more completely. That is why we are here.<\/p>\n

Depression has taught me that through my darkest moments, I am not alone. Even though it is a struggle to always see it, I am deeply loved. Jesus is with me. My friends and family and sisters in community are with me. I still have something to give. I can hold the hand of someone else when they are in the darkness. I can be a small light for them. I can be the voice of love because through experience\u00a0I know we all walk together.<\/p>\n

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ABOUT THE RABBLE ROUSER<\/a><\/strong><\/p>\n

\"Sister-Sarah-Hennessey-cake-face\"<\/p>\n

Sister Sarah Hennessey<\/strong><\/a> is a Franciscan Sister of Perpetual Adoration based in La Crosse, Wisconsin. She grew up in North Carolina as an active Quaker and became a Catholic in 2000. For her, Jesus\u2019 Messy Business includes falling in love with Christ AND with the People of God! Her heart is on fire for the Hispanic community, poetry, singing and\u00a0accompanying people through birth, death and the living that comes in between. She currently ministers as the perpetual adoration coordinator at St. Rose Convent<\/a>, as a Mary of the Angels Chapel<\/a> tour guide<\/a>, and a volunteer at Franciscan Hospitality House.<\/em><\/p>\n

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When Jesus came to the ER<\/a><\/blockquote>