Can any of you by worrying add a single moment to your life-span?<\/em><\/strong> (Matthew 6:27)<\/p>\n Do not worry about tomorrow; tomorrow will take care of itself.<\/em> <\/strong>(Matthew 6:34)<\/p>\n Therefore I tell you, do not worry about your life.<\/em>\u00a0<\/strong>(Matthew 6:25)<\/p>\n Do not let your hearts be troubled or afraid.<\/em><\/strong>\u00a0(John 14:27)<\/p>\n Jesus is, after all, a very encouraging savior, a source of strength. He needs us to\u00a0be brave if we’re going to do the hard work of building up the kingdom of peace and justice in the here and now.<\/p>\n Plus, it makes sense that the Gospel would be packed with messages telling\u00a0us to persevere in faith. By the time the Gospels were written down—a few decades after Jesus walked the earth—those early Christians were dealing with some pretty intense fear. Uprisings and persecutions were becoming common. The Roman Empire was increasing its control, getting more oppressive to anyone who wasn’t\u00a0… well … Roman. With such heavy darkness, it must have felt\u00a0like the world was falling apart. Sort of reminds me of the world we’re living in today.<\/p>\n Jesus’ demands are not about darkness, though. We are children of Light.<\/p>\n I get it: to be a Christian means I am a person full of vibrant hope, love, and faith in God. Like a ceaseless\u00a0trust that God can handle anything and shine light and peace into any situation. I know Jesus is trustworthy.<\/p>\n Yet. The “Be not afraid<\/em>” words straight from Jesus’ heart stir up a gray space inside me; a place where I am not letting my trust in God illumine my faith life. Ultimately, anxiety corrodes the place where God\u2019s light could glow bright.<\/p>\n In the past few months I have been reminded that my anxiety out-of-order is neurological, a condition made by realities beyond my control: genetics, trauma, biomechanics. I wake in the dark of the night with my heart pounding, my body vibrating with restless energy. My mind races with irrational thoughts; electric brain waves I struggle to redirect toward hope, trust and acceptance. My muscles cramp with tension; pinch nerves. Tears of pain moisten my eyelashes. I am afraid of things that I can\u2019t even name and my body lets me know it.<\/p>\n Some might argue there’s good reason to worry. The news doesn’t sound good; happy headlines are hard to find. From Aleppo to South Sudan to the cracking corners in communities throughout the United States, the trouble only seems to be getting worse.<\/p>\n Faced with burdens and commissioned for Christ, we’re overwhelmed. Hearts are heavy with abundant\u00a0hurt and there are many wounds to tend to. It continues to feel as things will just keep getting worse before they get better. Genuine cries and terrified screams are causing racket in our hearts and dreams\u00a0as\u00a0we do as we’re called to do: move toward the pain with servant hearts open wide.<\/p>\n When my body begins to manifest the anxiety that somehow settles into me, it can take hours for me to know relief, to relax into the dark, to rest and calm down. Often, what causes the most comfort when I am in the thick of fear is the calm of silence, the stillness of solitude and wide open spaces, like expansive skies.<\/p>\n At times, within the gaps of seconds ticking, I somehow come to gradually feel a holy, healing Presence; a fleeting consciousness that I am not ever alone; that Jesus himself knew—knows—the darkness and fear. (That’s Emmanuel<\/em>, God with us.)\u00a0<\/em>Other times, my\u00a0racing heart and shallow breath either normalize gradually or cause me to pass out from exhaustion.<\/p>\n Because the fear is real and intense, I find myself thinking of holy folks who have dealt with it well; who have modeled for me trust in God. I think of how the Holy Family\u00a0were no strangers to a climate of fear, a culture of death. I imagine how oppressed the common person in Nazareth must have felt as they tried to survive on subsistence farming and continued to pay heavy taxes for fear of torture, robbery, murder, or the kidnapping and raping of their children. Certainly, they were desperate for a Messiah, a redeemer to liberate them. I meditate on how a very pregnant Mary must have felt; filled with discomfort and concern\u00a0as she awaited the arrival of her son. I consider how uncertain Joseph must have felt; how he worked to remain steady and kind even while his heart and gut flipped in fear. I pray with Jesus squirming within the dark womb.<\/p>\n There are other words in the Bible that give me strength, that calm my fears—important messages first given to the early Church:<\/p>\n But you are a chosen race, a royal priesthood, a holy nation, a people of his own, so that you may announce the praises of him who called you out of darkness into his wonderful light. <\/strong><\/em>(1 Peter 2:9)<\/p>\n And you, child, will be called prophet of the Most High,\u00a0for you will go before the Lord\u00a0to prepare his ways,\u00a0<\/span>to give his people knowledge of salvation\u00a0through the forgiveness of their sins,\u00a0because of the tender mercy of our God\u00a0<\/span>by which the daybreak from on high\u00a0will visit us\u00a0<\/span>to shine on those who sit in darkness and death\u2019s shadow,\u00a0to guide our feet into the path of peace.<\/strong>\u00a0<\/em>(Luke 1:76-79)<\/p>\n Yes: no matter how strong our fear or how deep the darkness, we are children of Light. During the darkest days of the year (at least in the Northern hemisphere) we look for the light in the darkness, we decorate our homes with glowing bulbs, we observe the nature of light. We imitate the rays of light that\u00a0unite together and illumine a way to peace, providing hope to all.<\/p>\n","protected":false},"excerpt":{"rendered":"Lately a certain Gospel instruction is has been\u00a0grinding challenge into my life, really giving my heart a doozy of a talking to. Jesus says it a lot, in many different ways: Do not be afraid.\u00a0(Luke 1:30; Mark 5:36; Mark 6:50) Can any of you by worrying add a single moment to your life-span? 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<\/a>Fear, darkness, and Advent<\/a><\/blockquote>