{"id":5628,"date":"2015-10-01T10:54:38","date_gmt":"2015-10-01T15:54:38","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/customwordpresssites.com\/mjb\/?p=5628"},"modified":"2026-02-26T13:47:27","modified_gmt":"2026-02-26T19:47:27","slug":"enough-or-not","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/customwordpresssites.com\/mjb\/2015\/10\/01\/enough-or-not\/","title":{"rendered":"Enough or not"},"content":{"rendered":"

I live on the cusp of enough and dreamy desires;\u00a0in the liminal land of paradox.<\/p>\n

I am always trying to make do with my limits, to authentically live my vow of poverty and get re-rooted in simple living.<\/p>\n

Yet. I am always longing for more.<\/p>\n

Desire, dreams, faith and hope fuel my energy. Even when I am overwhelmed or exhausted, a vision of justice-prevailing and the Kingdom of God coming into full fruition remains my impetus for laboring and loving. I believe that the peace Jesus proclaimed is possible.<\/p>\n

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Honestly, my yearning\u00a0for more-than-is\/more-than-I-have-right-now isn’t always about the ideals I hold close to me. Some of my dreams are embarrassingly superficial, completely basic and ordinary. Like\u00a0Oh, how I wish I had a panini maker to cook this\u00a0sandwich <\/em>or This hairdryer is too loud and clunky, I should get a new one.\u00a0<\/i>I am regularly creating mental lists of objects\u00a0that I think will create more convenience and efficiency in my busy life, just because I too fall for the lies of American commercialism and capitalism. I have to catch myself. When I find myself thinking that more stuff will be a solution, I must gain new consciousness. I must recommit myself to my vow of spiritual and material poverty, to my “Yes” to trusting that God has always given me enough. I really know how to make-do with what I have, I just have to remind myself of this frequently.<\/p>\n

Every day, every moment, I have enough. I have enough time. Enough materials. I have all that I need. I have passion and potential. I am loved and supported. God’s abundance is infinite and as a child of God, I have access to the graces and strength and power and love that is enough for me. We all are children of God and we all have access.<\/p>\n

Some days–in some moments–this means I must truly honor my limitations and needs.\u00a0I am tired, I need to rest\u00a0<\/em>or I will kill myself if I try to meet this deadline, I must ask for an extension.\u00a0<\/i>This is an element of honoring my own dignity as sacred, of caring for the vessel of the Holy Spirit that I aim to be.<\/p>\n

I am limited. I am weak. And, amazingly, by God’s grace when it comes to what matters most, I totally have enough. I must trust and allow myself to remain in God’s loving hands.<\/p>\n

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But then.<\/p>\n

God calls me to continual growth, to be a steward and foster the gifts I have been given. Just like the rest of you, I am invited to expand the reign of God and contribute to a better society, to a more just and peaceful humanity.<\/p>\n

I really am heartbroken about the ways that we don’t honor every human life as sacred in our culture. Unborn babies are killed and criminals are executed. Street shootings are common. Prisons practice torture and remain open and funded. Drones are still flying and people are still starving to death.<\/p>\n

I have a responsibility to contribute to positive social change. I can develop my own talents and abilities so to better glorify God through all my choices.<\/p>\n

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Do I have enough or not? I don’t know. I do know that I don’t want to be greedy. \u00a0I want to be a person who creates, not consumes. I do know that I am on the edge of satisfaction and healthy discontentment. A\u00a0Gospel tension\u00a0is alive within me, a Spirited realization that the world is not the way God\u00a0intended, because we truly\u00a0are sinful creatures.<\/p>\n

I am slowly learning that this tension is holy ground. It turns out that this dilemma of desire is actually our God-given nature. Though limited, we all are on a journey of growth and self-improvement. By God’s design satisfaction and contentment are fleeting; we constantly yearn to know, feel and experience more.<\/p>\n

Ultimately though, when we yearn in the in-between space of Hope for a better world\u00a0<\/em>and\u00a0This is\u00a0<\/em>enough,<\/em>\u00a0we are yearning for God; for the simple, loving Way of Jesus. We desire\u00a0God–for the source of all the justice and goodness that we believe in–to prevail and reign. May it be so, Amen, Indeed!<\/p>\n

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“Changing edges”<\/em>\u00a0by Julia Walsh, FSPA<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n

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Enough or not<\/a><\/blockquote>