{"id":4881,"date":"2015-03-04T11:14:42","date_gmt":"2015-03-04T17:14:42","guid":{"rendered":"https:\/\/customwordpresssites.com\/mjb\/?p=4881"},"modified":"2026-02-26T13:48:53","modified_gmt":"2026-02-26T19:48:53","slug":"beautiful-chaos-and-lenten-conversion","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/customwordpresssites.com\/mjb\/2015\/03\/04\/beautiful-chaos-and-lenten-conversion\/","title":{"rendered":"Beautiful chaos and Lenten conversion"},"content":{"rendered":"

Recently, I asked my students what comes to mind when they hear the phrase “Kingdom of God.”\u00a0This (low-quality) photo summarizes the lively classroom discussion that occurred that day.<\/p>\n

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“Kingdom of God Period 6 Classroom Discussion” photo by Julia Walsh, FSPA<\/figcaption><\/figure>\n

As I told my students, I intentionally recorded\u00a0all their comments on the board in a very messy fashion because I want them to see that the Kingdom of God is not orderly and predictable. In fact, living in the Kingdom of God that Jesus established means that we are living in the midst of beautiful chaos.<\/p>\n

Through the incarnation\u00a0Christ empowered us build the Kingdom of God. And, if we’re doing the work of building the Kingdom of God, we’re people who are moving into the chaos, out of our comfort zones, and toward the margins of society.<\/p>\n

As we serve others we are invited into more chaos, into encounters and relationships that may disturb us. We love and serve those who Christ loves, we go against our natural inclinations and logic. We love our enemies and those who may not deserve it. We give and love without judgement or attachment. We remember that “we are workers, not master builders; ministers, not messiahs.\u00a0We are prophets of a future not our own.<\/a>”<\/p>\n

The chaos, the messiness of building the Kingdom of God is the stuff of beautiful chaos. It is also the stuff of personal and social conversion. During this Lenten season, our actions of prayer, fasting and almsgiving challenge us to confront the uncomfortable corners in ourselves that are in need of God’s loving attention. As we let go of attachments and rearrange a bit of our living, an ugly seeming image of ourselves can emerge. We look at ourselves and see an inner chaos; we feel disturbed by truth. We need to grow, to be different, to convert more fully into who God made us to be.<\/p>\n

I recently heard another Sister speak about how the chaos of a crisis gives us a chance to make a choice, frequently providing just the impetus we need to change. She connected these vital moments that invite our personal growth to the designs in God’s creation. When we study nature, she mentioned, we can recognize that the next evolutionary stage erupts when there is crisis and a need for change to occur.<\/p>\n

I feel as if I am on this edge. The chaos of my weakness swirls about me, challenging me to make choices. I started Lent two weeks ago with a bit of my typical overambitious and idealistic intentions. And then I quickly started failing. Days would get busy and I would forget that about the extra tasks I wanted to do, like writing a card to someone I love each day. Now I am challenged to ask myself difficult questions, like why am unrealistic with myself? And, am I making enough time for others? I am challenged to move to more self-awareness and allowed to make another choice.<\/p>\n

Each of us dance with questions and disturbances in the chaos of God’s Kingdom. We are allowed to make choices that allow for greater personal growth. We are invited to encounter the chaos that is the lives of others.<\/p>\n

Then together–as a community–we change the structures, systems and inner oppression that don’t allow God’s Kingdom to fully come into the here and now.\u00a0We forgive. We heal. We teach. We love our neighbors as we love ourselves. We love God with all that we are. Then, the peace, justice and love that is the Kingdom of God can be known in this time now.<\/p>\n

Amen!<\/p>\n

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